9 aka I’m so sick of not having answers to this goddamn stupid fuckin video game reality

9 aka I'm so sick of not having answers to this goddamn stupid fuckin video game reality

I know this bullshit isn’t real. I tell people its not real, I don’t give a fuck if they think I’m crazy. I know I’m not goddamn crazy. The world is a fucking videogame. Literally. mountainsphoto.ru

Its so goddamn annoying when you really just want to be selfish and not give a flying fuck about anyone, you just want to be left the fuck alone, because your whole goddamn life you try to do the right shit, you finally make the effort to go do the shit you want and finally jus admit you don’t fucking care or have feelings for people, then the whole world goes fucking upside down. People think your crazy when your not, you still have to do whatever pointless dumb shit your “supposed” to do. You don’t even particularly want to even fucking do it, or you would rather just do it for your own selfishness, or your own goddamn goals, but the stupid goddamn managers of this stupid goddamn system won’t let you stray and everytime you have to come back to this same dumb shit and help people with things that seems so goddamn easy and simple to you.

Then even when you try to do it again with love and friends and trust and all that dumb shit it still doesn’t feel like it makes a goddamn difference cuz you still have all the dumb crazy possibilites of shit bouncing around in your head and happening to you every goddamn day.

I WANT MY GODDAMN ANSWERS! Free will my fuckin ass. If I have to do this dumb shit by goddamn self (which I’m not, and haven’t been for a looooooong fucking time, and really just want to be by my goddamn self, and if I don’t get to be by myself because even when I do people I haven’t seen in years suddenly want to pop up everywhere, clients all want to be friends, and I can’t stop having stupid crazy goddamn dreams about the friends I left, and no matter what the fuck I do this shit never goes away, and I still don’t know what the fuck it is, no matter how many goddamn questions I ask, how many things I try to hunt down all that shit is still goddamn there nagging the fuck out of me constantly for no fucking reason that makes any kind of goddamn sense to me.

I just want my fucking kids like this shit promised, and if I gotta fucking do this shit then I want those kids to be with the fucking perfect person, and I mean goddamn PERFECT! cuz its been too long with no fucking answers, I’m tired of being goddamn molested by invisible SHIT!

/Rant over. If you don’t understand it or think I’m crazy, FUCK YOU!

I’m glad I don’t advertise this site much, one day all this stupid shit in this stupid system that I’m going through is going to make sense. Until then its time for some happy music.

SMT…………………….

BLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH………..

Fuckin writing letters and shit some fucking voice starts nagging me about for over a goddamn year now, I don’t get my fucking letter, I write one and still don’t get any goddamn appreciation.

People, I’ve been going through some goddamn shit this past year and I’m tired of not knowing what the fuck its about, or what the fuck is going on, or not being able to talk about it properly with people without them thinking I’m fuckin nuts, and its just ONE GODDAMN PERSON I WANT TO FUCKING BELIEVE ME AND UNDERSTAND THIS SHIT AND KNOW I’M NOT GODDAMN CRAZY AND I’VE BEEN TRYING TO FIND OUT FOR A LONG FUCKING TIME IF THIS ONE PERSON IS ALREADY IN MY LIFE AND I STILL DON’T HAVE THE FUCKING ANSWER AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK TO DO NEXT.

$$$$$, EXPERIENCE, FUN, ALL THAT DUMBSHIT ISN’T WORTH IT IF YOU CAN’T DO IT WITH THE PERSON YOU WANT TO DO IT WITH!

I SO DID NOT FUCKING ASK FOR THIS SHIT, OR IF I DID THE GODDAMN NEGOTIATIONS WERE BYPASSED!

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!

Time for some happy music, you probably think I’m angry if your reading this but I’m really not, I’m just goddamn exasperated with it all, because I’ve been more than patient with all this shit from day goddamn one and all I have is proof that I’m either not allowed to or can’t show to anyone else that I was right when I said this shit is heaven, and its like a goddamn videogame and you can have whatever the fuck you want, but this shit won’t hurry up and give it to me.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

maybe I am a little mad.

Anywayz.

http://youtu.be/-N7mZJ06T4Q

I FUCKIN LIKE THESE SONGS AND ITS SO GODDAMN HARD TO JUST ENJOY THIS SHIT LIKE PEOPLE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE ABLE TO DO WITH MUSIC! WHEN THE FUCK DO I GET TO ENJOY MY GODDAMN HEAVEN! Cuz I fucking know this is it. LITERALLY! I WANT MY GODDAMN KIDS!